Don't know what I'm doing anymore

I don't know what I'm doing anymore with my every day life. Something needs to change, I need to get out of this rut. What am I to do with all this loneliness? What am I to do with all this restlessness? I feel like I'm going to blow sooner or later. I'm so done with school. I'm so done with the people I know. No one gives a shit. I can't make any friends and I haven't been able to for a very, very long time. I'm just waiting for change. I want to go somewhere far away and never come back. I don't know how I'm going to sleep tonight. I've never been so alone in my life. What a wretched, crushing feeling.

The day I realized the truth

Everything I thought you were is turning out to be a lie. I don't understand you at all. How could I have been so dumb to believe the words coming out of your mouth during those times we spent together? I now know who you truly are, and I hate it, and I will never again give you the time of day. I don't care about you at all anymore. I hope one day you will choke on your lies and your irresponsibility and your carelessness. I have lost all respect I had for you. Goodbye forever. You are never getting into my heart. You don't deserve it. You're less than human to me.